I Am Not My Story

My story was defined by a cultural heritage.  Southern. White. Female. Catholic. Traditional. Authoritarian. Patriarchy. Private/Parochial School.

There’s more, naturally, but my story does not define me, even though there are elements I chose not to reject.

Easter always depressed me as a child. It was a bi-polar week of coerced solemness that I was never able to shake come candy baskets and the swing in mood to “up” for big family gatherings on Sunday.

The Jesus I learned about was not the Jesus in the Easter Sunday story. That story was about us vs. them. That story was the duality of good vs. evil, sin vs. salvation.

Jesus, by contrast, was about togetherness and connection.

Biblical scholars have debunked much of the story as claimed by dogma and religious ceremony, along with many of the events as interpreted or fabricated in the writings people embrace as having divine origin.

Yet, people still deny this, unable to transcend their stories.

Quantum Physics and the fractal nature of every element, atom, and sub-particle that can be perceived or theorized (if it cannot be seen) consistently and infinitely evidences the theories of connection and inter-connection.



Instead of wasting energy focusing on events that probably and definitely (depending on your perspective) did not happen, instead of trying to make the leap between what you can’t understand and what your story defines that you believe, why not transmute that energy towards true connection – delete the politics, economy, and sociology of scale.

Delete the separate nature defined by your story.

Release the boundaries that prevent you from accepting the very connections your heart projects, but that the confines of your story denies.

If you watch this video, you will see that there are negative spaces filled when connection occurs.


Empty space becomes charged so that the many become one. You may think the same is achieved when you commune symbolically with others in rejoicing about a rising Christ. But, that is a linear pathway denied you while you remain human, until you die (supposedly).

It is not about your relationship with a higher power (and all the boundaries that your story (your culture, your upbringing, your politics, your religion, your wealth, your status) imposes to conceal who you truly are meant to be and also forces you to constantly contradict yourself as you try to embrace complexity beyond those confines.

It is about the part you play in the connected whole while you live. That is the higher power. That is the divinity. The path is not linear. The path is multi-linear – it is fractal – and connected. The evidence is clear.

You can even have it both ways. Parts + Parts = Whole. That’s not so different from your idea of what a connection to God looks like, is it?

The difference is that the Parts = the Whole, as you are the divine individually, already. You have always been divine.

To seek the connection, you only need to look within and see yourself as creator, and to see me as a creator – all of us, creators. You can even create reality.

Dogma restricts. You can post all day long (as you have) about how “He has risen.” But, in reality, tomorrow, where will your focus be?

Will you feel certain that you have that connection you seek with your divine power? Will you need reminding?

Will you feel that if you do not exclaim the words on high before sundown on Easter Sunday, that the words will somehow not be a part of you, that you are not doing your job to proclaim, and thus will fail or fall short of the glory you seek?

If you feel the connection has been made to such glory, why do you have the need to proclaim it at all?  Or do you really even seek that glory? Why? Is it simply because it is a part of your story? Why does your story have to define you?

(I posted the original text to social media on Easter.)

For more about this perspective, watch The Lottery of Birth (I highly recommend this film!).



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